Moving slowly and Daria T

The medicals for the agency are done. Though I'm sure there may be more to fill out fo the home study.  Since this one was only one page with little to fill out I figure there's got to be more to it than that.  Ordered a certified marriage certificate which I should get in the next three weeks or so and am looking for some other things I can accomplish while the dust finally settles.  We do haven appointment with a bank who supposedly gives special adoption loans which is a little better on intrest rates when the loan is for the reason of adoption and it is more flexible as you don't have to take out the whole sum of the loan thus pay interest on entire sum but the money would be released slowly as you need it so saving on some interest.  Not bad idea.  So we are going this Thursday to find out more about it and how much we'd qualify for.  My wonderful hubby though still relluctant made the appointment for us.  He's just the greatest.
 
Also on Saturday morning what waits for me in my mailbox, two beautiful pictures of LB in the dresses I've sent her.  She's so fair skinned so that the vibrant hues in the dresses give off some colors to her cheeks. No doubt her skin has to be very protected when she goes outside into the sun.  She's smiling in the pictures so I hope that means that she is pleased.  The orphanage wall behind her is really a shelf unit of some sort with a collections of toys and thing that look rather nice, by her feet are two large stuffed toys and a beautiful Barbie house so it looks like she has grown up in as nice a place as can be.

And my beautiful little IK, he has been adopted and is now with his family.  The other day was just his first day at home with mom Camille.  I don't know who she is.  If anyone ever does hear of a Camille who's just adopted a little two year old boy with the deepest dark hair and eyes please let me know as I would love to say hello.

At the end here would like to bring attention to little Daria T born in 2007.  She has Down Syndrome and is listed in the "other" kids section of but she sure could sure use a page of her own.  She's so beautiful.  Mom and Dad please pay attention.  This could be your daughter.

The Appointment and Langley

Okay, we had the appointment today; adoption agency appointment that is.  First, my reluctant hubby not only showed up but picked me up at work and drove across town to the agency and sat patiently while I asked my questions.  I knew eventually the inevitable had to happen; we had to bring him into the conversation.  All day I agonized over it, cringed over it.  What was he going to say and how much of it?  Or would he come through for me?  So, let's just say the appointment was not a complete disaster.  At first we were talking to a female representative and then a male came in and my hsuband almost lit up.  Don't get me wrong hubby did not say that he wanted to adopt or that he thought about it all his life but he was willing to listen and most importantly talk about it.  He even asked some questions.  The door has opened, a crack.  When we left I was consumed with giddiness and was crying like a baby at the thought I might be able to help a helpless child after all.  Of course the finances are always a worry just like with everyone else but when the will is there hopefully the rest will come along.  If we all stood up for one child we would have no orphanages. Wouldn't that be a wonderful world??

Little Langley is still waiting for his mom and dad to find him.  His fund has stalled a bit so I put in a donation to get it moving again.  I hope it keeps going.  This little boy so deserves a fmily of his own. 

Waiting Wednesday: Pasha

It's Waiting Wednesday but I don't think that newly listed Pasha will wait for long. He just looks like he would be such a blessing to one family.  Just look at that beautiful little smile.  He does have Hepatitis C and will need to be well looked after once he is brought home.  He was born in January of 2012, so young, please consider in opening your heart to Pasha.  Bring  him home as soon as possible and shower him with love so he will never remember a time when he wasn't loved.

G.I.G.

God is good.  Little Justina has been found by her mom and dad.  She won't have to wait too much longer to be with her family in a place she's belonged to all along.  I think everyone's story has been written a long time ago.  There is a time and place for everything.  The only thing I don't understand is why.  Why do some children have to wait longer than others?  Why do some never get found?  Is it because they are better off where they are?  We know that sometimes the world can be a cruel place but still are they better off at the institution than with a family?  Perhaps that's true some of the times.  Could that be true for LB or IK?  No.  I don't believe it for a minute.  They're little butterflies just waiting to flee their cacoon, not be buried in the rubble.  I wish I was already in the process of bringing them home but as it is I have to keep waiting and be patient.  I wish there was a forum for the hopeful adoptive parent like me and Jane over at Flight Platform Living who want to give a home and love to one child who needs it so badly but obsticles stand in our way; there are mountains to be moved.  Mine just might be moving ever so gradually.  First, my wonderful, wonderful !!! reluctant hubby gave me his letter of employment which is one of the major things needed for a home study and dossier- HUGE - Get this; he had it done on March 29th but held onto it for over a month; wondering, debating, searching, agonizing (I can just see it, steam is practically leaving his head) for the right thing to do; to give it to me or not give it to me??  That was the question.  Well, I'm ticked a little bit that he held onto it this long but the important thing is that he did give it to me.  In fact that's all that matters.  He still says it means nothing.  It doesn't mean he agrees to adopt.  Who is he kidding?? He just took this huge step closer and of course it means something.  It's just that it's hard for him to actually say it... the words... that we will adopt, that we will be parents to a younger child again.  I can understand that but this story has already been written and my beautiful honey, it just needs to play out.  Why hasn't this happened to us earlier in life??? God only knows. It's all in his timing.

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So Happy for Keegan

That is fantastic that beautiful little Keegan has found a family.  I hope everything goes well for him and his mommy and daddy go get him real soon.  Sweet baby will be loved.  So happy.

Wanted

To say God works in mysterious ways is so true.  When I think about why this wish to open my home and heart to an orphaned child has come to me at this point in my life is sure a question only he can answer.  Even more surprising to me is that he thinks I am equipped for such a precious task.  Have I been the greatest mother that ever lived?  I hardly think so but I have raised three beautiful children who have lives, wonderfully different personalities and are thriving.  I wouldn't say we were rich but our children grew up with all that they needed and wanted but most importantly with lots of love. We wanted them in our lives.  We wanted to be their parents.  Maybe that is the key here.  Wanted.  This is what an orphaned child lacks most of all; being wanted by someone like their mom and dad. But we as parents need to want it too.  I want to help a child who would not otherwise have a future and give them all the love and support they need to suceed in life.  My husband, not so much.  He feels he has done his part by raising our children however slowly I do believe God has been working on his heart.  Hubby has asked more questions lately what an adoption entails.  How could we possibly do it?  We have good jobs but by no means do we have forty thousand sitting around waiting to be used.  I know, I say but we could do it little by little, one step at a time after all that is how we raised our children, one step at a time.  So, I've asked an adoption agency for an appointment so we can answer some of his questions and mine and we'll go from there.  I've mentioned LB who has PKU but it turns out that is not a special need in Russia and therefore we cannot request her file but if we give a very close description of her we just might get lucky and get her referral but first she has to be transferred to Moscow.  That will be an accomplishment as well. There is another child, a boy who is dear to my heart.  We've been sponsering him with a couple of medical issues but he is otherwise healthy.  I originally thought they were both special needs children and was wondering how come they were not listed on RR but as it turns out they are not special needs. Certainly, I didn't plan it that way so someone else must have.  True too, he knows what we can handle.  Little IK, turning two this month is already in the right region for us to be able to adopt.  Again, I'm sure God has a plan for both of these children and for us and we're so excited to find out what it is,  I am for sure.