Never Ending Home Study

Well, what seemed like the never ending home study is coming to a close. I contacted our social worker and she said it should be done by the end of the month. Hearing those words or rather reading them in the email made me all giddy inside. Up to now the home study seemed sort of unreal to me. I realized we were going through it but it did not appear to have an ending or some sort of completion or almost as if we were doing it for nothing. Not having a child to commit to makes it pointless in a way because you don't know if in the end, if there is an end if even there will ever be a child for you. Still I persevered because I believe there is a child whose red thread is leading us to her and that's what's making me go on, be unable to give up no matter what obstacles are put before me. She is out there, of that I'm sure. 

Currently we are on vacation for two weeks and are busy doing this and that, some day trips so this will bring the end of the month that much quicker because you know how when you are at work time moves at a snail's pace but should you be on vacation it goes super fast and before you know it you are back at work, in my case back at the office reading emails I don't want to read and solving other people's problems I don't want to even think about because my mind is elsewhere; on what I have to do at home, on family, on how to find more time to spend with my grandson and yes on China.  When they say is China calling you?? It is for sure. With so many children to help, how could we help them all. I saw recently the face of a little boy, such a sad little face, on the boy's shared list. His name is Jayden, he's 3 or 4. There is a picture of him with his two little arms in front of him, shoulders and elbows dislocated, the little hands turned inward, fingers missing but the look on his face just got me straight in the heart. It's sadness, embarrassment, annoyance, impatience, anger all rolled into one; like why me, why did this have to happen to me, what am I suppose to do with these, I'm stuck, I can't do anything.  Though I'm sure he's learning to do things and is adjusting to some degree I'm also sure that some surgery and therapy would do wonders for this little boy and not just for his motor skills but his disposition as well.

Many of these children await a simple procedure so they could live a better life, some await complex surgeries and many procedures but it could mean so much to these little ones if someone will just take a chance on them.