Chances

Sometimes life takes strange turns, ones you never saw coming. Why a new purpose at this stage of the game who knows? Is there some sort of plan already written, is someone other than you writing it? Some of these things we’ll never know but the journeys we take could just be a new learning curve and if you shy away from it you’ll never learn. So, we’ve got to keep learning to take a chance.

Agency Registration Mailed

All at the right time, I suppose but finally I've had the ok to mail the agency registration. My husband is a wonderful man but he has many concerns, rightfully so. This is a huge step, much bigger than I ever imagined. I waited to mail the registration because I wanted him to be ok with it and at last he was but how quick some people make it look. It appears that many people simply decide to adopt and so they do but perhaps it's not as quick as it seems. For some it's years in the making. It's long time a coming. It's always in the back of their minds and for some it comes later in life, when their family is already grown up and now life throws them a curve ball and they get the call.  Is there really "a call"?? I didn't think so at first. How do you get a call? What call? There is no call. A person or persons make a conscious decision to adopt; to give a gesture of help to the world situation of orphans. It wasn't us, we didn't always have it in the back of our minds. Sure we were sensitive to the plight of the orphans and we helped in some other ways but as suddenly as it came down to me that what I really need to do is help in the way of adoption, to give one child a home, it was so out of the blue that really there is no explanation for it other than that I got "the call". Could that be true? Is the call real?  I hope so because I mailed the registration to the FOI agency with the registration check and let the chips fall where there may or let sweet Jesus lead the way.

When is it Enough?

I've no news at this point about my own adoption but it seems other do.  They are adopting another child.  Yet again they've heard the call to adopt. It makes me wonder how some are called or are enabled to adopt again and again.  No sooner had they brought their newest son or daughter home and in some cases more than one a time and now another child catches their eye and so they start the process over again. How is it fair that some adopt many times and others do not get to do it once? If they already adopted five or six times is this not enough?  When is it enough?  Then again there is always the question of what is their secret?  How do they overcome all the obstacles of financing, disagreeable relatives, children or spouses? Are they really more special than others? Etc Etc

Even though at the bottom of it is a matter of helping a child, no matter who the parents happen to be as long as they are willing and able to provide for it, there's still that kernel of jealousy, why them and not me? Am I not special enough. Am I lacking in some way of love and finances so therefore I am incapable to provide this to another child? I can't see how that can be. I've provided plenty for three children I've raised already and we continue to spoil our grandson with everything he needs and more. So why then do some enabled to adopt multiple times and others are not?