A Family for Marissa

Lovely little Marissa has a new family.  They are working hard on their paperwork and the adoption process to get to her as quickly as possible.  She is one lucky little girl.  Her family sounds wonderful and she will have three super cute brothers to look out for her and another sibling on the way.  I originally thought she should have older siblings who would dote on her and parents who would have time just for her but God had different plans and I'm sure they are the right plans.  Marissa will do just fine.

Now, here is someone who partly made me go down this path of adoption.  When I saw what a privelaged child he was going to be with so much love and so much support around him it made me think of all those children who were not so lucky.  This little baby, my first grandchild, a four and half month old boy named Brandon seemingly pointed a finger at all those kids who may never have what he has, the love of a family.  He was a thirty two weeker and spent a month in the NICU and has brought our family together like no one else has.  Brandon and his parents live in my house for now and I treasure every single moment I get to spend with him.  I watch for his smiles.  I wait to hear his giggle, to see his beautiful face in the morning.  I hope that one little orphan named Marissa will have all that and a lot more in her life very soon with her new family.

BITTERSWEET

It's a bittersweet day as the confirmation comes up on RR new commitment's page of Marissa's new family.  By their timeline I missed her by a hair.  I'm sure my beautiful little girl will have a great life with them.  I will watch their blog faithfully and pray to make sure they bring Marissa home.  I wish it had been me and my family.  I was convinced that I was her Mama but if this is the way it was meant to be then I wish the Gillettes all the best in their journey to Marissa and will support them what way I can.
 

Budi dobro moja Malena.  Necu te zaboravit.

PS. I can't seem to leave any posts today but thank you Pam and Sarah.

Family Blogs

I've been checking Reece's Rainbow to see if Marissa's family blog might come up but I can't find anything yet.  Maybe I'm missing it somehow.  Everyone adopting from EE and other countries seem to have a blog of their journey.  It's interesting to read and wonderful to see how these children prosper and grow when they get into the loving arms of their families.  They just thrive and look so happy and smiling all the time.  Thank goodness for families like these.  I guess seeing the blog would be a confirmation that Marissa was indeed adopted so not seeing it yet is making me rather anxious.

Dobro Jutro Malena

Na zdravlje.  Nadam se da si dobro spavala. Budi sretna.

I was just saying good morning Malena which means 'little one' who is Marissa of course, real name Maria nicknamed Masha so she is a little one of many names.  I am speaking in Croatian, a language she may well understand.  It's morning here in Canada but it's evening in EE where she is.  I'd love to make her Palachinke (crepes) with peach jam or sugar.  I wonder if she knows yet that she has a family or two waiting for her.

Two Mamas for Marissa

What Pam said over at Saving His Sparrows blog really stuck with me and what role Pam plays in all this I don't know yet but she definitely does.  Is it really possible that after having no Mama to call her own little Marissa was destined to have not one but two Mamas?  One in the South and one in the North.  How on earth would that work out?  I have no idea but the seed of possiblity is there.   Perhaps there is a certain something she will need from each of us and each of our families.  Thinking of this makes my heart a little bit lighter today and it leads me to wonder who her new family is, where they live.  Are we destined to become friends through Marissa or will her new Mommy resent me for talking about her little girl? Time will tell but the path has already been written and nothing we do will change it.  When they say God works in mysterious way, it is certainly true.  Maybe through this child a lesson is to be learned.

Samo za jednu malu Mariju

Laku noc, mala curica, Marija.  Dobro spavaj.  Ja cu sanjati o tebi.

Never Forget

Not sure what I'm suppose to do now or how will I forget her?

Regarding Marissa

Marissa is a little girl who caught my attention with her big blue eyes and a  beautiful smile.  She has captivated me so that I started contemplating adoption at this stage of my life. My husband and my grown children wondered what was going on with me but my older daughter understood.  At first she wanted to adopt Marissa but when that looked impossible I was willing to step up.  In the meantime looking at her picture and video she captured my heart so much so I began to think that fate had decided I was to be her mom and she my baby.  Because I'd just turned fifty and my kids are grown though still at home it was a decision I could not make overnight.  My husband and I had just been first time grandparents for three months when Marissa came along and found me discovering Reece's Rainbow.  She came through my life like a strong gust of wind making me certain that she belonged here.  My husband though was not as sure as I was.  He thought with his head while I thought with my heart.  While we talked it over and when I finally sent in a letter reqesting the first step in adopting Marissa I found out she had just been spoken for, probably soon after I saw her picture for the first time in August at which point she was still waiting for her forever family.  The information was bitter-sweet.  It was wonderful that Marissa got the family she always wanted but that family wasn't mine.  Her mom would not be me.  I will not travel to Russia and scoop my baby and bring her home where she  belonged.  Will I still look at her pictures?  Yes.  Will I ever forget her?  No.   Her blue eyes and her smile will forever stay in my heart and I wish her the best life she could possibly have.