Merry Little Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone and anyone who happens to come by; I know not too many, still I wish you all the best.  It is not a white Christmas for us however our family is together and that is all that counts.  We had a good time talking and laughing over dinner and opening our presents.  While my children and grandson are surrounded by their gifts in abundance I think about all those little ones who will get nothing but another night in their crib; some cold and wet and alone. Do  they even know it's Christmas? Probably not.  I wish we could somehow help them all, let them know we care but as it is they will never know.

If We Go Tomorrow

My daughter and I already got our fingerprint results back and my son just went to get them done today.  We still need some police report but it's the holidays and they may not come back until after holidays are done.  I know we picked a bad time but still as long as things are moving forward is all that counts.  I am checking into different countries as well to see what the options are and what their requirements are.  It seems each country has little bit different needs and requirements, while some are concerned with the family income others are more concerned with their health and age etc.  Now, amongst all this I have to worry about the end of the world tomorrow.  I don't know how many times we've had the world ending and yet it is still here.  If we do go I take comfort in our family being all together and probably that's all that counts.  I lived long enough to see a grandchild.  It would be a shame if he never got to grow up but at least he's seen some of the world and he was loved, oh so loved and treasured by all of us which is so opposite of some of the kids at the orphanages who may never experience true love of a family.  My heart goes out to each and every one of them tonight.  Here's to tomorrow, may the sun rise again.

The Promise

After talking with our social worker this week she told me I would have to get my fingerprints done even though they told me at the police station that I didn't even though they knew it was for adoption.  I knew something was not right with that so now I wasted time and still have to get it done but I found out I can also get it done at a private place who is acredited with the RCMP; it didn't have to be at the police station and there are many private places.  I had no idea; it's not like I ever had to get fingerprints done before.  Not only that, everyone in the house also has to get it done.  Good thing our niece who was staying with us has found her own place and moved out on Dec. 1st.  My oldest daughter and her fiance and their baby also found an apartment and will be moving out on Jan. 8th so since the home study will not resume until a week after that they will not have to have fingerprints done.  Though I hate to see my little grandson go I know that my daughter is eager to start a life of her own.  She is twenty six and her little family need some privacy to do their own thing and not have us look over their shoulder all the time.  We know that we need to stay away so they can learn to be parents but it's hard not to spoil the little one.

Getting back to the private fingerprinting places, they charge a little bit more but they get it done a lot faster as they use digital printing; should get results back in a few days instead of a few weeks so at least that will save us some time.  So, that leaves my other daughter and son who were not so keen on adding another child to the family.  They were not ready to get their fingerprints done either however after a few days of talking they have agreed to do it.  It somehow meant so much to me; seems almost like mountains are moving.  When they say God doesn't call us to do the easy things it's so true.  I just hope they go through on their promise.

Eagerly Awaiting

OK some things have cleared up.  That’s good news and bad news at the same time and some of you know what that feels like.  You’d like to be happy but you can’t be.  First my wonderful dear husband has agreed to go proceed with the home study and after its completion we will review the situation.  I was uncertain about that at first but then decided that I will have to go with it.  It is not easy for our male counterparts to admit that they would have more kids after they thought they were done.  Seeing and hearing about the orphan situation of the world makes our maternal instinct kick in but the males, they can sit back and watch the world go by.  That is not to say that once they are committed they are not just as driven and fierce about their little cubs as us females; they can be equal if not greater than us but it is slow coming for some. 

On the other hand I just heard eight year old Leah seems to have a family working on documents for adoption.  I’m presuming it’s in her own country since I don’t know of any agency who works in her region. I’ve sent her one last gift for Christmas and they thanked me for looking after her this year.  Well, the pleasure was mine as well.  Of course I wish her nothing but the best with her family.  As well I heard back about Lilly and her region.  Though the agency has worked there in the past they tell me there is no activity in this region now and no international adoptions are happening; if that’s from their end or ours I’m not sure but unfortunately it’s a no go.  That’s the thing with regions, they can be fickle, you never know how they are going to react.  I’m sad to say that at least for now these roads are closed to me.  It doesn’t mean that others won’t open.

We will push forth to complete the home study and be provincially approved and then I’m certain things will fall into place as they should. Two other children have caught my eye but at the moment they are not available to me either.  Maybe this is telling me something.  Maybe I should not be adopting or again and again and again I have to be patient for the right things to happen at the right time.  There’s been a more than a few instances where a family commits to a child only for some unforeseen obstacle to stop it but the situation always leads them to the child they are meant for and there’s been no regrets only certainty that this was how it was meant to happen.  God has a plan that is not always clear to us at first and there is something to be learned with each road travelled.

So, I sit here eagerly awaiting January 15^th so we can move on in this journey.  We may not complete it for another few months but when it is, it will be just the way it was meant to be.  After all he is at the helm and we are here to follow.

Love Them All

No news is good news, right? Not in this case.  I wish I had some news but at this time I don't. I'm stuck with the home study.  It's going neither forward nor back.  I'm still hoping to to complete it in the new year so that if a child does become available we are ready.  Right now we don't even have a child.  I can only look at certain regions, not all but how do you chose.  It seems next to impossible, so many children who need homes.  Wouldn't we just like to take them all in, love them all?

I'm happy to see little Carmen and Archie have families coming for them.  I hope they get there soon.  I wish I heard something from the agency about Lilly but I did not.  I'm afraid to ask again in case it's bad news.  Besides, I can't fall in love with any child because I'm still on shaky ground but I do wonder about some children; how they're doing?  Do they get attention they deserve?  I like seeing the little smiling faces which makes me think that hopefully they are getting some loving from their caregivers and I'm thankful for that.